As of late...

I feel like I am totally messing up and totally succeeding at the same time.  I don't know if I'm doing the right thing, the wrong thing, too little, or too much.  I guess that's where one's own sense of intuition into what's right and wrong comes in to play.  I feel like I'm happy with my figure, but I don't feel healthy.  At the end of the day I feel absolutely exhausted.  I feel like my heart is beating too fast and I am trying to move too many agendas too far each day.  But I'm afraid if I slow down, I'll fall off this train, and it's been such a fun ride so far.

I entitled this picture (excuses) because I've used the weather as an excuse to skip exercising for two mornings in a row.  I mean in Nebraska, this would be considered a nice day.  We'd try to sneak something in.  But in California, these hazy mornings mean sleeping in.  I see a few people strolling the sidewalks of Glendale, but not many are out.  Last weekend, the visibility was 10 miles, so I hiked up into the Verdugo Mtns and took a picture of downtown LA.  Yesterday, the visibility was 3 miles and today it's 1.5 so I just told myself to skip it.

My weight on the scale went up, but also has my activity level over the past three weeks.  I will get a performance evaluation on Tuesday which I am looking forward to.  I justified skipping workouts since I've been so hard on myself lately, I might actually need a rest day.  Today we are getting massages.  We've had a contract for monthly (or more) massages at a chain called Massage Envy.  It gives me an excuse to shave my legs at least.

So when I start skipping workouts and making excuses, I tell myself to think of exercise as a daily pill.  Instead of taking an antidepressant pill, weight control pill, birth control pill, immune system boosting pill, vitamin D pill, I just go for a walk.  There's nothing wrong with spending an hour a day in nature.  Moving.

So I guess you could say the view from my handlebars is getting better.  Got to sneak in a ride with RBC on a Tuesday night.  It was great.  I worked at UCR during the morning, then took my bike to Don's for a tune-up.  Then, I headed down to Adams via Victoria and La Cadena Dr.  I love the scenic glamour of Riverside et environs.  I have no idea where we went on the ride, but it was my first night ride in a long time.  I remember passing across Overlook at one point and thinking, I'm glad we're crossing this beast and not heading up it.  I missed my biking friends and it was a sweet rendez-vous.

I've been doing some crazy gardening.  I germinated a bunch of seeds under lamps and transferred them to the front lawn.  If they survive, we'll eat them all summer!!!  Our new goal is to OCCUPY GLENDALE until July.  Glendale is awesome, it's nearby a bunch of fun places.  In July, we will visit the windy city of Chicago.  So by then, the garden will either be established or wilted from not surviving.  It's crazy windy here.  There was a wind advisory (above 35 mph gusts) for this morning.  Take that Chicago.