Thursday, October 8, 2026

future plans

Well, here I am. I'm bringing this 5 AM Club meeting to session. On our agenda today...Getting over the fall and doing our first dark run since the accident. I am going to watch my footing today and pay attention. I'm gonna lift my feet up.

This heat wave is almost over; today, tomorrow, and the next day will be cooler than the last. It might rain this weekend. It might not. That remains to be seen. I'm feeling okay, but I'm still sick. I feel a little shin splint starting up on my left leg. I entered a Walktober challenge, so it always pushes me to do more miles than is comfortable, which is never a good idea. But I'm hard-headed and I don't I like to lose. I'm not thinking at all. It doesn't matter if I win the step challenge if I end up injured. But maybe I can push our other competitors, challenge them. We'll see. I'm also clocking certain workouts on Strava to qualify for a Brooks sweepstakes. To get a bib for the Walt Disney World marathon in early January would be insane.

I don't know; I'm really toying with what to do in 2027-2028. I'm so down on this training cycle, I actually said it out loud. I told a friend, "I don't think I'll keep doing the marathon; I might not even continue running. Maybe this is just too high impact for me." Once you say it out loud and start telling people about it, that's the first step in actually doing it.

I wish I could say I feel a touch of fall in the air. But it still feels unbearable, hot, and gross. Even though this week, I had some extra time I kind of did a bunch of things for the house and for family, which ate up all that time. But I also went to the chiropractor. He checked out my hand and said it's not broken. It's jammed, and it might take six weeks to heal. And now I know. And I can just be at peace with that; it's actually a lot better. The swelling on the back of my hand has gone down. I still can't bend my pinky or ring finger very well. But overall, it's a lot better. It's only been a week and 2 days.

I'm really, really, really enjoying my run club gals' company. I feel so lucky to have met these amazing moms. And I will be sad when the session is over. Ms. Jenna said that she doesn't want to do another session right away because of the holidays. It is kind of hard, though, when I feel like we have some momentum, to just put the brakes on. But hey, it's not my show. And I'm getting ready to promote my faculty development workshops, which are coming up in a few days; the first one is in two weeks. So there's that.

But as I was saying, I'm already kind of thinking about 2028. I don't know, is that healthy, or is that crazy? One thing that definitely is happening in 2028 is a family reunion in Colorado. I love it, and I'm so excited about it. 2028, we have the Olympics coming to Los Angeles. So that's gonna bring excitement, and whatnot. I'm fantasizing about getting a Disneyland Magic Key again. Hanging up my running shoes. Trading them back in for a Magic Key. That's crazy, right?

What else would I like to see for 2028? Oh, wait. It's our wedding anniversary, a big one. We got married in 2008, it would be 20 years. 20 years. Maybe we can take an awesome trip or something. We can take a big trip. Celebrate our anniversary. I don't know what it should be. Also, it would be 15 years of sobriety. It's amazing, it's amazing. We live a new life now. We're happy and healthy. I'm happily married. We love each other. We love each other's company.

Yeah, it'll be interesting to see how the Mission Inn has changed. Gonna be there in about a week. It's changed ownership. The Mission Inn Run is now the Mission Inn Foundation Run. Don't know if they're giving legacy swag because so many things have changed in the last year. They changed the route. They say it's the 49th annual, the 50th year.

I don't know. It wasn't exactly the 8-week training cycle I had planned. I had one sickness. Then planar fasciitis. A virus and a bad fall. It's a lot. It's enough to derail a training cycle. But when I go out and run 4 or 5 miles, I feel good. I feel good about it. Afterward, I'm still taking what I would consider to be huge amounts of anti-inflammatories. And I don't like to rely on that. I don't take it before the run. I take it after the run and before bed. And it's just what I have to do now, I guess, my new normal.

I did a consultation with a genetic testing firm, they have this technology called AlterMe, and they look at some of your genetic markers, and tell you what you're predisposed to. They told me I am predisposed to holding onto weight. It would be hard for me to lose weight. They told me that I am predisposed to inflammation and stress, and high cortisol. They also told me I have great digestion for protein, carbs, and fats. I know my body can assimilate nutrients; that's for sure. They told me that I should be doing maybe more like 75% strength workouts, and only 25% cardio. That's not what I'm doing now. They said I really need to focus on recovery, intentional recovery, different ways to bring the cortisol down. Like meditation, breathing, stretching, all that stuff.

And one thing that I realized about myself is that I really do thrive in group fitness. In group fitness situations, I love a Zumba class. I love a community. I love the community aspect of exercise. It's not just the workout, and I think that's why I don't love just going to the gym and doing a circuit, because I really like seeing people other people and doing stuff with other people. And I get more energy; I thrive. The social aspect matters to me because I am an extrovert, and I love being around friends. I never really thought about that before; I guess that's why I love races and training with a running group. And that's why I love Fit4Mom classes; that's why I love a good fitness class at the YMCA, and I kind of don't like swimming because it's very solitary; you're not really having any social aspect to it, just you underwater with your thoughts. So I thought that was kind of interesting.

Well. Here we are. Another beautiful morning. Darker, darker, darker every day. You can definitely feel the darkness earlier. Darker in the morning, darker in the evening. Definitely. It will be a new moon on Saturday 10/10; I could see the stars so well last night or 2 days ago. Now I just barely see a little baby crescent moon on the horizon, like a Cheshire cat smile. I'll trot it out a little bit, see how I feel. I still have about 35 minutes to do some kind of not-speed work. Let's not call it that. Just trot it out. All right, then cheerio, friends.

P.S. Unless I am much mistaken, I skipped my period this month.

I love myself

Bitxh, you live in Los Muthafuckin Angeles! This is your dream life, like Malibu Barbie, babe. You live in a major world city, a cultural hub. You don't let other people tell you who you are; you live your truth; you set trends; you aren't a carbon copy of anyone else. This is a city that kills dreams, but it also holds space for you as you manifest your own identity. You may feel scrappy, but everyone else in these mean streets does, too. (I wrote this a month ago while riding the bus)


Scary Mommy posted instructions for how to view your Amazon "About You" page. Mine was actually really cute and made me feel like a badass.

Departments: Running Equipment, Sunscreen Products, Nutrition Supplements, Home organization, Bike Maintenance, Educational Books, Diamond Art Crafting, Tennis Equipment, Party Supplies, Children's Products, Children's Footwear

Interests & Hobbies: Practices yoga or fitness routines, Runs regularly with specialized equipment, Maintains bicycles actively, Reads educational non-fiction regularly, Likely plays tennis, Creates diamond art crafts consistently

Product Preferences: Consistent sunscreen restocking, Prioritizes mineral-based sunscreen formulations, Replenishes nutrition supplements regularly, Shops from women's departments, Invests in premium running footwear, Seasonal diamond art purchasing, Shops from boys' departments

Brands: Prefers Sun Bum and Banana Boat for sun protection, Chooses CRZ YOGA for athletic wear, Uses Brooks for running shoes, Regularly selects Amazon Basics for basic supplies

Home & Family: Has 2 adults, Has a son, Owns multiple RC cars, Has a husband

Overall, I think this sums up the life I wished for. As it turns out, the life I wanted matches up pretty well with the life I have. I don't think I could have written a better bio for myself.

rise and grind

According to the AlterMe app, the 4 Pillars of Health & Wellness are Exercise, Recovery, Sleep, and Nutrition. They gave me a lot to think about. When I have more time, I would like to look into each and every one of these single nucleotide polymorphisms (SNPs) and what they are responsible for.

Exercise

Exercise and Activity Genetic Profile = Strength Athlete

Strength can be resistance bands or body weight. It doesn’t have to be too heavy.

  • Response to Strength is Above Average
    • NRXN3 (rs10150332), GNPDA2 (rs10938397), LRRN6C (rs10968576), PRKD1 (rs11847697), GPRC5B (rs12444979), SLC39A8 (rs13107325), FTO (rs1558902), FLJ35779 (rs2112347), MAP2K5 (rs2241423), QPCTL-GIPR (rs2287019), NEGR1 (rs2815752), LRP1B (rs2890652), MTCH2 (rs3817334), MTIF3 (rs4771122), RPL27A (rs 4929949), SEC16B (rs543874), FAIM2 (rs7138803), FANCL (rs887912), ETV5 (rs9816226), TFAP2B (rs987237)
  • Bone Density Risk is Above Average
    • SPTBN1 (rs4233949), MEPE (rs6532023), C7orf76 (rs4727338), LOC105378305 (rs1373004), LRP5 (rs3736228), FAM210A (rs4796995)
  • Ease of Weight Loss is Below Average
    • FTO (rs9939609), PPARG (rs1175544 & rs1801282), BDNF (rs6265), TCF7L2 (rs7903146), ABCB11 (rs484066), MTBR1B (rs10830963)
  • Response to Cardio is Average
    • ADRB2 (rs1042713), LPL (rs328)
  • Motivation is Internal (not External)
    • BDNF (rs6265)
  • Keeping Weight Off is Above Average
    • FTO (rs9939609), BDNF (rs6265), PPARG (rs1801282), GNPDA2 (rs10938397), NEGR1 (rs2815752), TMEM18 (rs6548238), KCTD15 (rs29941)

Sleep & Recovery

Stress Resilience = improvement to Heart Rate Variability (HRV)

  • Inflammation Risk is Above Average 
    • CRP (rs2794520), APOC1 (rs4420638), HNF1A (rs1183910)
  • Stress and Anxiety Resilience is Average
    • PDE4B (rs7528604)

If your parasympathetic nervous system is in fight-or-flight, you can’t get benefits from a workout.

  • By meditating twice a week, you could lower your cortisol by 23%. (Reference 1)
  • If you are genetically prone to fight or flight, take care of yourself and calm down.
  • Use breathwork and meditation.

Intentional recovery is a priority. Build in tools to lower cortisol during taper period.

  • You're experiencing inflammation, bloating, and brain fog. That's due to hormone remodeling taking place during perimenopause.
  • You're already prone to high inflammation due to your DNA. Hard efforts may not even be worth it.
  • Complete active recovery sessions to improve mobility and flexibility and lower stress levels.

Deep and REM cycles to help nervous system recovery. Heart Rate Variability (HRV) score.

  • By maintaining a sleep schedule, you could improve your HRV by 60%. (Reference 2)

Cardiovascular Health = lower resting heart rate

Additional Traits

  • Mental Decline Risk = Average (not Above or Slightly Above)
    • BDNF (rs6265)

Nutrition

Nutritional Analysis = macro tracking like MyFitnessPal
  • Response to Carbohydrates is High
    • IRS1 (rs2943641), FGF21 (rs838147)
  • Response to Proteins is High
    • FTO (rs1558902), MCM6/LCT (rs4988235)
  • Response to Fats is Average
    • PPARG (rs1801282), TCF7L2 (rs12255372), CRY2 (rs11605924), MTNR1B (rs10830963), PPM1K (rs1440581), FABP2 (rs1799883)

References

1. Koncz, A., Demetrovics, Z., Takacs, Z. K. Meditation interventions efficiently reduce cortisol levels of at-risk samples: a meta-analysis. Health Psychol Rev. 2021 Mar; 15(1): 56-84. DOI: 10.1080/17437199.2020.1760727. Epub 2020 Jul 7.

2. Busek, P., Vankova, J., Opavsky, J., Salinger, J., Nevsimalova, S. (2005) Spectral analysis of the heart rate variability in sleep. Physiciological Research. 54(4), 369-376. DOI:10.33549/physiolres.930645

Monday, October 5, 2026

hello fall

Yes I experienced a fall. I fell on my hand, my fingers bent backwards towards the back of my hand. Then I tried to tuck and roll and landed on my knee and shoulder. It sucks, it happened a week ago. Lots of negative things happened last week.

Before my fall, I had a serious mistake at the Bimbo Global Race in Pasadena. I had carpooled with my friend. We got there early, did the bib pick-up the day before, everything was going great.

At the start line I realized I had lost the car keys. So I DNS'd the race. Met up with my husband who brought the spare keys. It wasn't the race day I had hoped for.

Then a few days later, the window on our driver's side dropped down and wouldn't go back up. I spent Thursday morning fixing those two problems, even with a busted hand and busted knee.

I gotta spend some time this week undoing the damage from my fall. I need a chiropractor and a massage. Don't know if I should have gotten an x-ray. 

The hand feels better. I can (almost) type. I can (painfully) write. It hurts really bad when I bump it on something. It hurts when I shake it, like shaking out laundry, or shaking water off my hands. 

But I was able to run on Sunday without my hand hurting. The skinned knee is not healed yet, but thank goodness I had some 2" x 4" flexible fabric bandages.

Thank goodness we have jobs that pay enough to afford to have these things happen and we can resolve them in less than a week.

Friday, September 25, 2026

fall morning musings

Sorry for the brain dump. I have no time to edit this into a more coherent post. But I do think it's important to check in on how training is going. We're post-liminal space now. We're "in season." I've been relying on B-vitamins and ginseng to give me the energy to get through semester weeks 4 and 5. I'm starting to really look forward to the Mission Inn Run.

Decorative border around diplomas mounted above my computer in my office at work

9/14 Morning run routine and motivation for consistent workouts

Good morning, runners of the world. I'm now here, it's a Monday morning. My feet are already hurting. This workout is kind of questionable. Don't know if I should be doing this right now. But I'm up. My husband woke me up. I'm ready to get my workout in and get on with my day. It's not a big deal, right?

People everywhere get up, do a workout, and get on with their day. I try to keep it simple. Follow the training plan. I trust the training plan. Sometimes life gets in the way. My son has been saying every food tastes like something else. Cucumbers taste like lime. Blueberries taste like dirt. I'm pretty convinced it's the sickness that we're dealing with. And as usual, my husband got it really bad. I'm in denial. And our child is just turning into a tiny Tasmanian devil. Because he doesn't know what to do with himself. He's sick and tired, and he's just running on adrenaline.

I don't know what I'm doing. I do know. I'm okay. Doing my little warm-up here. I'm getting my heart rate up walking up a big hill. I know how to do this. I trust my body. I trust my instincts. Although, my instincts today told me I just need to stretch, and not do a workout, but here we are.

At least the weather's kind of nice, 66°. I'll take that. Better than it has been. One morning last week it was 80 degrees at this time, so 66 feels nice. I felt really good after yesterday's run. I felt a lot of positive vibes. Which is why I decided to go out today.

I did my first upper body workout with my friend, Erik. That was good. I'm not that sore. I feel like I did something, I really did. I did something different. I did something brave. I did something that I would normally not do. And I'm okay. I don't feel so sore that I would never do it again. I will do it again. I will do it again. I will do it every Saturday. I will put it into my schedule. Do it. I gotta take a closer look at Coach David's plan.

I am at the top of this hill. Keep going. I tried to listen to a podcast, but it didn't really inspire me today. So I'll probably listen to music. Catch you next time.

9/22 Recovery and training routine after illness and donation

It's a good morning, it's a good morning to not get hit by a car. Hopefully these cars stop, they have a red light. You just never know with people, but I'm here, I'm out here training.

It's 24 weeks till the marathon. And despite all the foot issues that I've been having, I figured out that I just need to sleep with my feet in a flexed position. And that has helped greatly. Yesterday at work, my feet were feeling really good. Of course, I didn't run yesterday, but I'm gonna try a run today. See how that tracks.

I've had a lot going on in the past two weeks with my foot issues. We got sick. We got the flu. We've got diarrhea, nausea. I couldn't heal properly, I'm so tired. And this weekend, I donated blood. So we're gonna see how we feel going into the Bimbo race this weekend. Do a little couple laps around the Rose Bowl just for funzies.

I kind of switched up Monday and Tuesday. My husband got a little agitated by that. He likes it when I do my rest day on Tuesday. I wrote about how I felt like I was in a liminal space. A liminal space between 2 training plans. At the end of summer, the beginning of school, I almost feel like I'm probably in the groove of school. I don't say I'm thriving yet, but starting to get some traction. Trying to figure out what I can do. What I can do comfortably. And not have a total body breakdown. Because we want to train productively. My husband reminded me I usually find my groove mid-semester, like week 8 or 10 and then the semester ends. And I get a whole new schedule. And then it's chaos again.

By training, we want to cause adaptations in our body that lead to greater fitness. And what we don't want to do is break down to the point where we can't go on. I don't know how, but I was kind of there. If your body's not recovering, then you're just digging a deeper and deeper hole. Can't rest your way out of it. Can't eat your way out of it.

I've added on some other recovery things. I try to do it every single night. Magnesium foot soak and athlete's foot cream (1% clotrimazole NOT tolnaftate). Foam roll a bit. A little bit more on the muscle scraping right now to remove adhesions. I'm putting a lot more time and energy into recovery now. But it is pushing bedtime back by 30 minutes.

9/24 LARR Coach's call

What is 80/20 for runners? 80% low intensity, 20% high intensity. But that's not the perfect plan for everyone. It is what is used in Coach David's Level 4 plan for the LA Marathon.

As you age, you need to go down a level because you have less growth hormone. Level 1 is for age 70. Level 5 is for someone in their 20s. It has nothing to do with experience.

Run so slow that you're bored. So that you need company. That is your easy pace. Easy = fat-burning, aerobic, zone 2. MRP = zone 3, could maintain this pace forever. T-pace raises the pace at which you still can use fat as a fuel source. R-pace is neurological, engaging fast-twitch muscles.

Speed, volume, hills all increase the risk of injury. Fartlek is Swedish for speed play. Choosing a random object and going fast to get to it. Something you can see.

Morning & evening runs are the best. If we could all do it. On the same day. To increase volume efficiently. You can do 30 minutes in the morning. Then eat protein to rebuild muscle. Take a nap. Do some body work (massage). Then run again in the evening. Break it up if you can. That's what the pros do.

Why is the training plan in minutes rather than miles? Your body knows heart rate. It doesn't know miles. It knows time spent in anaerobic. You don't need to rely on an expensive heart rate monitor. You can just pay attention to your breathing.

Key Takeaways

I think based on what Coach was saying, and this was one of the questions I was going to ask him, if I got injured following the level 3 plan for the Santa Monica Classic, which plan should I follow for the marathon? I think he said that if you get injured, drop back to level 1. 

Coach also said that as you get older, you may need more strength training than what is written in the plan. He said if you're Travis Kelce and you're already built like a truck, you might not need more exercises that build muscle. But if you're frail, with less muscle tissue, then you might need more strength training than what is in the training plan.

Even with all these setbacks, I only completely skipped 1 training session. The other days, I inserted stretching or yoga or walking. It took me 2 weeks to reach out to my sister and ask for help. Why am I so stubborn? haha! Next time I'll try to reach out sooner.

Thank you to summer me who decided to order new shoes. I went through all my shoes and did a test to see if they would bend easily. Even though they're new, the Ghost 17 and Glycerin 22 bend so easily. But thankfully, the Ghost Max 2 does not. I kept preferring to run in the Ghost Max 2 but I didn't really know why. So I bought two more pairs from Amazon. Amazingly I have 3 pairs of shoes that I can rotate and I wear the running shoes during the day while teaching. So I don't have any dedicated running shoes, at the moment. But at least I am getting the plantar faschiitis under control.

Thursday, September 24, 2026

big guns

 


I finally had my appointment with a menopause-informed OB/GYN that I got a referral to from my primary doctor. 

He said Lo-Loestrin is great for managing perimenopause symptoms; that's what his wife took during that time.

He said the estrogen and progesterone dose in Lo-Loestrin is 4 times what you would get if you were prescribed HRT. So it's actually stronger.

He suggested I get an A1C measurement. I called my primary doctor to order that test for LabCorp. They'll email me the form.

He said he wants to see me again in 6 months for a check-up. So I guess that would be after the marathon.

He said it sounds like I'm doing everything right, and getting older just sucks.

He said not to worry about the heterogeneous uterus.

I went to Planet Fitness by myself and did the strength-training circuit my friend Erik showed me. I can see myself getting into a routine where I do that every week.

After one cycle of birth control pills, I did notice a significantly lighter period. During the placebo time, hot flashes and brain fog return. Irritability and itchy feet are back. And hair loss returns without estrogen supplementation. I noticed that after just 2 days on placebo.

I feel like my plantar fasciitis is actually getting better. I'm sleeping in hiking boots every night. I'm scraping my muscles before bed every night. I'm taking naproxen and ibuprofen in high doses both morning and night.

I also had time to make a new video for RunClub!

Tuesday, September 22, 2026

all the time in the world

If I had all the time in the world, I would write molecular stories for all these molecules

Paxlovid aka nirmatrelvir-ritonavir (antiviral)
Tamiflu aka oseltamivir (antiviral)
Empagliflozin (diabetes medication) aka Jardiance
Metformin (diabetes medication)
Lipitor (atorvastatin)
LMNT (electrolyte supplement)
Klaron aka sodium sulfacetamide (antibacterial treatment for rosacea)
Azelaic acid (treatment for rosacea)
Tolnaftate (antifungal)
Clotrimazole (antifungal)
Picaridin also known as icaridin (insect repellent)
Metofluthrin (insect repellent)
Citronellal (insect repellent)
Allethrin (insecticide)
Aesculin (a toxic component of buckeye)
Phentermine (weight loss drug)
Oxytocin (the trust and bonding hormone)
Prazosin (alpha1-receptor antagonist for treatment of migraine headaches)
Guaifenesin (expectorant)
Diindolylmethane (DIM) as a nutritional supplement to enhance performance in female athletes, and also indole-3-carbinol, a related compound
N-benzyl-hexadecanamide in Lepidium meyenii (adaptogen)
withaferin A in Withania somnifera (adaptogen)
Ganoderol B in Ganoderma lucidum (adaptogen)
Fluoxetine (SSRI) aka Prozac
Citalopram (SSRI) aka Celexa
Sertraline (SSRI) aka Zoloft
Paroxetine (SSRI) aka Paxil
Escitalopram (SSRI) aka Lexapro
venlafaxine hydrochloride (SSRI) aka Effexor
Duloxetine (SSRI) Cymbalta
Alprazolam aka Xanax (tranquilizer)
anandamide (molecule responsible for runner’s high)
Jardiance (empagliflozin)
Allegra (Fexofenadine) http://bitchonabike.blogspot.com/2018/01/insomnia-part-ii.html
Zyrtec (cetirizine)
Claritin (loratadine)
Misoprostil
Creatine
Pepsid (famotidine) http://bitchonabike.blogspot.com/2017/01/sour-stomach.html
sitagliptin (Januvia)
Benadryl (Diphenhydramine)
Ashwagandha
Melatonin
Estroven = Soy isoflavones 60 mg + 56 mg+ Black cohosh 40 mg + CQR-300
BCAA (branched-chain amino acids)
MCT powder 6 g + Lactobacillus 1.5 B CFU
Collagen 10 g
Blood pressure-lowering medication (Diuretics, Beta-blockers, ACE inhibitors, Angiotensin II receptor blockers, Calcium channel blockers, Alpha blockers, Alpha-2 receptor agonists, Vasodilators)
  • Olmesartan (blood pressure lowering, angiotensin receptor blocker)
  • Nebivolol (blood pressure lowering, beta-blocker)